Saturday, October 30, 2010

Images ~ Downtown Portland, Oregon

I wrote a lot of little notes and reflections in my notebooks while I took a two-day solo jaunt to Portland, Oregon last week. It takes me so long to process my experiences, that sometimes they stay locked inside of me. Two very simple images that I share here are of the upper glass top roof of the IMAX light rail stop and a shot of the front.

I was walking early that morning and it had been lightly raining on and off. I was on my way to the Lan Su Yuan Portland Classical Chinese Garden. It seemed that everywhere I walked—and I kept to a small portion of downtown—since I only had two days—But in that short time, I was amazed at how visually appealing the buildings, bridges, and sculptures scattered throughout the city and in the parks were. I felt as though I was walking inside a complete work of art in a cosmopolitan city. Modern,  traditional, cultural, natural.

Here are a few more images that caught my attention from walking about downtown:

I fell in love with this building because I love copper and mirrors. I don't think I've seen a building with this color of glass before. I tend to like old fashioned buildings, but I also enjoyed the modern architecture that I came across. Most of all, my visual senses were pleased.

I wanted to push the pendulum as the marker indicates, but I felt too timid. Maybe next time.

I took this photo from outside of the Oregon Historical Society. It faces a church. The stained glass work was gorgeous to my eyes. There was so much green and natural beauty all around and I appreciated that very much.

A lovely quote from the wall from within the society that is considered the Oregon State Motto - 1987:

"She flies with her own wings."

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Note from the Garden

One lone rock in the pond,
Sun lights its shadow
Five koi settle together,
One large; another follows.
Sun slips between clouds and
All is still. Green
turns dark and cold.
She reaches for her pockets,
And in those moments, warmth.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Eugene O'Neill: Tao House ~ Reflection

Fitting that I should struggle with where to begin, how to go about capturing my visit to Eugene O’Neill’s Tao House. Fitting that this page would be the house itself: Which room to visit first, how do I feel, what impressions am I experiencing?

A year ago or so, I hadn’t heard of the American playwright, Eugene O’Neill. I first was introduced to him by a co-worker and second by an acquaintance who knew my love of writing. She said I would probably appreciate a visit to the home, and so a seed was planted—two seeds—a third, and then, I found myself there.

When my co-worker pal mentioned O’Neill and his autobiographical play, “Long Day’s Journey into Night,” way back then, I decided that before I visited the Tao House, I wanted to first read that play, which was written in that very house. The play flowed easily and the descriptions were visual, so that I could see and hear everything. I was right there. It is really a sad autobiographic picture of O’Neill’s life injected, sometimes, with black humor. Though at its core, it is pure pain turned to art. I found myself laughing and crying. “Long Day’s Journey into Night” held my attention and pulled me along into O’Neill’s subterranean world, into the characters—the real people there on those pages. And though it was autobiographical, it was also relatable and it reemphasized for me how the best material does come from deep inside of us—it comes from our pains, our truths—as we know them—then shaped into a so called fiction; and at other times, laid out there in all their truth.

It’s been about two month’s now since my visit to Eugene O’Neill National Historic Site, The Tao House, located in Danville, California.

There were many surprises because I didn’t know much other than what I read on the visitor’s website. By the very name of the house, one can conjure an image of what may be encountered, but I went with no vision.

The shuttle wound through the neighborhood up to the home of Eugene O’Neill. He lived here with his third wife, Carlotta. She found the property and worked with the architects to build this house, to bring East and West together into this abode where O’Neill, The Master, as they called him would write several plays. All understood, under no circumstances, was The Master to be disturbed when he was busy at work writing.

Nestled away in the wilderness, The Tao House, is but a short drive to town, yet one feels a sense of personal wilderness, of being tucked far away. The exterior of the home is of a Spanish style, white brick and some terracotta, met with Chinese elements seen in the tiling of the roof and pieces set around the exterior of the home and throughout the interior.

Upon entering the home, one is greeted with Asian masks of Chinese and Japanese origins. Much of the house has been arranged with Feng Shui principles. The Park Ranger Educator points out the mirrors of different shades, the Chinese Fu Lions that adorn each side of the stairs to the second floor of the home, and blue ceilings and brown tiled floors for the water and earth elements.

The room that made the most lasting impression upon me was O’Neill’s bedroom. Several  rooms had tinted inset mirrors of yellow, blue, or green , but his room was the only one that had a black mirror set into the wall. I couldn’t really see my reflection very well. It beckoned me to come closer though, to keep looking, and I felt as though I was looking into nothingness, into the dark, as though, I could slip right through. It made me feel a slight shutter, at seeing a black mirror that almost made me forget the rest of the room. Something about this mirror made me think and made me feel that each viewer, especially with this particular mirror, would most definitely feel something very different or maybe the same?

O’Neill loved the sea and his writing room was a reflection of that love, as well as a stark contrast to the feel of his bedroom. Besides the kitchen, his writing room was one room in the home that did not seem to have a heavy Chinese element to it. He also loved his beloved Dalmatian, Blemie. Of all the photos displayed in the home, only one shows O’Neill with a beaming smile on his face, and that is the one with his beloved Blemie by his side in a side embrace.

I am glad that I finally entered Eugene O’Neill and Carlotta’s Tao House—glad to have visited their world reflected in their home, and experience their sacred space, where O’Neill wrote for the last time.


Eugene O’Neill (1889-1953)
American Playwright
“Father of American Drama”


Information on how to visit the Tao House.

Eugene O’Neill Foundation ~ Learn and see about O’Neill’s time at the Tao House.

An Electronic Eugene O’Neill Archive

Eugene O'Neill quote from:


I wanted to share some photos that I took, to show you what I saw through my lens on that day.

Views from around the house

Exterior views of Tao House


 Can you tell which Fu Lion is female and which is male?

Carlotta's bedroom

 O'Neill's study - Carlotta typed all of his work from this most tiniest of writing. I couldn't even read it with that magnifying glass.

This is a closet in the hallway. I was struck by the efficient use of space done in an aesthetically appealing way. Those white drawers are perfect for keeping everything in order and out of site and then, as you can see, the red door closes, so that it all becomes one beautiful concealed piece. There were also many book nooks built into the walls. Books, books, everywhere!

Back downstairs
The living room

Front yard

Blemie's grave site.

O'Neill's beloved dog, Blemie, rests about 100 feet from the front of the house amongst the trees and critters.

Though O'Neill did not pass away at the Tao House, his spirit is very much there, and he did write his last works there. The docent educator shared the famous quote that O'Neill uttered while on his death bed:

"I knew it. I knew it. Born in a hotel room - and God damn it - died in a hotel room."
~~ Eugene O'Neill, writer, d. November 27, 1953


Sunday, October 10, 2010

Storybird ~ Belinda's Adventure

Thanks to Lu, I learned about the Storybird website where you can create children's books using the work of other artists. I created a story shortly after Lu told me about it, but I left it in limbo. Today, I decided to revisit it. The link is below. It's very short and my best guess is it's geared for children between 4 to 6, but I'm not sure.

Thanks Lu!

Chores and a Hike

Yesterday when I woke, I knew that I would have to keep myself on task. I had a lot of chores to do: Cleaning, rearranging, laundry, and schoolwork. I purposefully kept the computer off because it’s easy for me to get side tracked. I began moving things from behind the closet door, so that I could get to my shelf that has writing and poetry books. I was putting books back, but as I sat there with knees folded under, I decided to pick a handful of poetry books one at a time and read a few poems from each out loud. I noticed that depending on which poem I was reading, I would change how I read it but it just happened. In those moments, any aches and pains that my body felt upon awakening, disappeared. I felt pure joy at such a simple activity in the midst of my cleaning day.

I promised myself that if I got my chores done, I would take a hike. I saw that it was already a lovely day: Blue skies and wispy clouds. I felt good about what I got done because neglecting my responsibilities was starting to make me feel bad. I’ve never enjoyed cleaning much, and I’ll do it, but sometimes I let the task go for too long. I leave things out of their place for too long, allow the dishes to pile too high. And so, I hope to get into a better rhythm and start doing a better job. The good news is I did my tasks mindfully and was able to find the joy in it after all. I stopped to move my body to the music in the background occasionally, and I also had no music for part of the earlier morning, so that I was completely with myself in the quiet, and I could better hear the many different birds singing to the new day. They always start my day off in the best of directions.

The hike was the perfect end to the day.

The mountain in the background is Mt. Diablo